Charity and Guilt

Why do people give to charity and others do not. Is it a religious or moral conviction that leads one to give. Or possibly it out of thankfulness. But at the end of the day, I would say most give out of guilt.

Today, I'm at a coffee shop reading and thinking about the market when a homeless man from Africa and an odd instrument came up to me, slapped his instrument on my paper and started talking to me incomprehensibly to me, not from drunkenness but from his accent.

I told him abruptly that I was reading and didn't want to be disturbed in which he proceeded to continue with his act. I cut him off and asked if he was looking for charity and he said yes. So I handed him what is the equivalence of two dollars, as not to appear cheap, and he refused it saying he needed 100 shekels, but he would take 50. I persisted in saying that he is going to get $2 from me and that is it, sternly. He refused the money and walked on.

First, it shows that pennies aren't working in this inflationary global society; since I have to expand my theme because this occurred overseas.
Second, my guilt not giving him money. Deep inside my body revults at the idea at not giving and helping. The same feeling I have when I miss an opportunity in the market and try to board as the train has clearly left the station.
Third, if I saw him again or someone similar, to have a more positive outcome, I would refuse the act but see what his concerns are. And then possibly donate. But his attitude had me wound up and it was possibly from just misunderstanding each other.
Four, it reminded me of a former employee who knew how to get under your skin but when you were about to blow your top, he gave you a Cheshire smile that let you know he got to you.
Five, yet when I went to the health food store to buy food, the clerk said I looked relaxed. So in conclusion...
Six, when you are in a high state, you are lonely because it is hard to maintain, few are doing it and essentially what your painful gut is telling you is ... loneliness. But you have to confront it if you are to succeed.
Seven, be humble. Donald trump noted that when the real estate market crashed and he was bankrupt that the peddler outside his building had more money than him. You just don't know what will happen and that is the joy and fear of life. Find the middle road, but the one less traveled!

NOTE self to hopefully read a few bios or ask a few champions their feelings or ancedotes when they play for keeps.
IDEA for broadcast networks: as you are fond of doing now, asking idiotic questions to players and coaches in the midst of game-idiotic in the sense that what are they going to really say? Why not wire these athlete so we can measure their internal clocks. I believe not only would it make good tv, but lend a contribution to society besides record endorsement deals and steroid allegations and game fixing.